Monday, September 12, 2011

After so long...

Wow... After so long finally again. Two nights ago I had a very lucid dream which started as an astral travel when trying to escape a nightmare.

LAST night. I couldn't sleep, and I sank into one. The whooshing sound and sinking feeling. But then, nothing, I didn't floated, so I thought I failed. While I was hearing some radio signal. I was like "I don't want to listen to a radio, I want to go out of my body." So I stood up to make the sound go away and I find myself, violá, out of my body.

It was all dark so I ask for clarity. I could see my room, the door was brown instead of white. but the rest was the same. Then I was too dense so I couldn't pass through the wall, so I asked to be so light I could cross it. So I push myself a bit against the door and slipped right behind. Again living room/ kitchen dark. I ask to see all as clear as daylight. And lights went on. I walked towards the door and went outside. Were I was now in a weird place.

Two canals of melted concrete were getting filled beside the bridge after the balcony I needed to pass. On the other side a huge fence. And behind the fence PLENTY of people biking. I grabbed a red bike, weird one, and joined them. A little boy almost fell of the long stairs so I cached him with my leg. His father was thanking me, he was dutch. I could hear his accent. And I was trying to explain the kid how lucky he was in dutch. Then I woke up. :P

Short, but nevertheless, I loved how I controlled it at the beginning. :)

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Quick Astral Lesson

This is a quick entry. I am sick and this morning I woke up with fever again. Mainly because I was silly yesterday wearing little clothing in a cold weather and wet hair. In any case, I had to sleep today in order to feel better. I went to sleep at 10am or so and fell asleep for 30 mins. Then I know I shouldn't be so stubborn and keep sleeping even if I was bored. So I did, eventually I started dreaming, or more like visualizing, this man with a sort of wooden stick on the floor, pointing me to look to the center of the top of it and repeating the words focus and concentrate. I started to do as he said and before I knew it I found myself in vibration state.
After a while  enjoying that part I flew up and into a weird Alice-in-Wonderland space. It was space, with weird things floating like windows and doors. Landed on a pond like village where a lot of people was resting, but dirty XD. Then went up again and found myself landing on a cube in space where people would sort of stop to rest. Here I returned, mainly because of my cough after breathing so long through my mouth.
So that made it short. But I enjoy the fact that I could do it during daytime. And how I believe it was one of my guides that was teaching me about it. :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Observation

If my observation is correct, I should AT in the following days. I noticed an increase of lucid dreaming before an AP. So I'm paying attention to see if I am correct. Although I am getting sick so that might interfere.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Projecting through lucid dreaming

I was amazed of what I managed to do last night being today the last day here o.o lol

Set up: 
Today I leave to NL, and so last night I was anxiously trying to sleep and evade the freaking nightmares where I am late for my plane. Like always. So I end up dreaming it after all. I wake up around 2am to an sms of the friend who agreed to take me to the airport. Telling me her phone is not working so to call her bf's phone. That triggered nightmare #1 lol. I dreamed I forgot to call her. And I end up WALKING to the airport on my own. But then I remember like, OMG I Had to call her! So I decided to walk back hoping to make it on time. At this point, I've had so many nightmares with airports and planes now I now they are just dreams. Just like the failing a school test nightmare. lol So half the way back I realized, "hey, I can call her when I wake up." I realized I was now Lucid Dreaming. I figured this would happen soon, as it's always follow after a few consecutive half-lucid dreams where I am in control even if I am unaware is a dream, the more I fly and manipulate everything by thought in previous dreams, the closer I am to an AP state.
So, I stood on a bridge next to the sea, bellow it a house and a HUGE pool with view to the sea. I was taken by the view so I wanted to fly. I decided to jump and fly and a girl passing by was like "is she crazy?" And I jumped.

The Journey:
When I jumped I flew immediately. I started saying out loud, so loud I thought I was going to wake up, but it felt so natural and real. "This is no longer a dream, I am now in control." I suddenly felt myself pulling up from my body at full speed. No vibrations or anything this time. And I flew higher and everything went black and started to spin as I heard my own thoughts. "What should we do first. " And then it was like me having a conversation with myself. "I want to go somewhere where I can prove I was there." I think I meant after I wake up, but I always try to follow the rule of not making any mention to anything awake or body related.
After a few seconds thinking I gave up. "Ok, just take me to NL!" I said it so loud and firmly I really thought I was talking with my body's voice. This is the first time I feel this.

Everything spin as arrive at my destination. A bird-view of an intersection in Rotterdam. I've never been to Rotterdam, still have to, but it was a knowledge, that I knew it was it. Then I was like, ok, (I don't like Rotterdam's modern buildings hence I didn't really spent much time there. But I think it was meant as my proof. I've never been there, but I now know someone I have to meet that lives there so I might be going there and this was I can see if it's what I saw.)


Beating Negativity
"Ok, now I want to see this place 100 years ago" I said attempting time travel. LOL, couldn't think of anything else really, this journey caught me by surprised and unprepared. I was then again with black spinning, transported to the same area, but now with tall old European buildings BUT all colorful lol Like a rainbow street. Was actually very nice, but I figured it was very weird. The people were wearing old clothing though. I started to walk (seems if something looks normal it doesn't interest me lol) and I found myself in a sort of library isle. But with random stuff instead of only books. Books, paintings, frames, mirrors, just stuff. I was looking at one of them and I saw this man, all white, like WHITE white, staring at me. At first I thought he was just passing by but he followed me. So I turned around and he grabbed me. He looked like a vampire, maybe the so call "astral vampires" are true. As he grabbed me, his hands grew some white fangs from the nails and he has the most hideous evil face, not in a demon way, but in a very bad man way with white paint.


I was actually pissed off at it, but I remember I shouldn't feed negativity with fear nor anger. SO I looked him in the eyes, without fear, as I was enjoying myself and I had this much control I wasn't going to let someone ruin it. "Let me go and go away!" I said firmly. He looked at me and open his eyes wide, as I started to send him good energy he grew afraid of me and started to vanish. His fearful look made me feel pity and then compassion, I actually heard the word "compassion" in my head as if someone was teaching them to me and guiding me to do it like that, in a sweet female voice. This made him even more afraid and he vanished in thin air. I beat him!


The Guides
After this event I started to walk further. Behind the isles were what I came to recognize as the "dark" part of my own mind. It was a next room, with an arc, with medieval stuff and torture devices. I knew what was in there and who. Is like, I have been there before in previous dreams. So I stop before continuing knowing I was getting negative and lower on energy after my encounter. I sat on a bench just on front of that room, closed my eyes and took a deep breath to think what to do and get out of there.  I remembered the voice I heard previously so I thought maybe I should try meeting my guides. "I want to go now to a beautiful garden and meet my guides or angels" I said out loud.


Everything spins again and I zoomed in to a jungle, by the beach. In the middle of where I was "landing" there were 2 greenhouse domes. And inside a play ground and a door and some stairs. I thought "Hey! This is not a garden!" There was a puzzle I needed to make in order to "un-flood" the front of the door and get to the second dome to go somewhere. Then I saw a boy sitting inside the dome to the left of the door. He was around 16 - 19 y/o, with sandy blond hair and tan skin. He was playing with something and then started to solve the puzzle. I was confused and waiting for him to finish and he said, "don't worry, you just need a little patience." And he smiled. Then it because a dream and I was in my body. 


The funny thing is I notice, when it became a dream. I saw myself on my body again and then right away back to dreaming. Like a short interruption but back to dream land. lol And at first I thought the boy referred to the puzzle, but then I realized before I stop being lucid, that he refereed to my request of the garden and my guides. I figured that the fact that I was a bit low on energy had to do with it. And that I need to learn to raise my vibrations before doing so. So next time, I will attempt it before the journey. I just need to program myself to it.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Updates

I haven't AT all these weeks, mostly because I'm about to travel and my mind is only set on the excitement of it haha. But hopefully once I'm in NL and I sleep better I can bring you more experiences :)
Until then, that is all.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Learning control and Lucid Dreams

So last night was long, very long.
A few days ago I read something that ringed true. We cannot force AP, we can only create the conditions for it to happen even though it won't always happen.
So following this advice, I've been trying to do so. Last night I woke up at almost 2am, trying to AP while figuring I couldn't even sleep. I tried, but my head was getting heavier. To which I figured after almost 3 hours I had a migraine. So I got up and drank some migraine pill. When I went to get some water and use the bathroom I saw my sister on the couch. "What are you doing there?" to which she answered, "There is a mouse in my room." So I went back to be, and realized how heartless of me to leave her there while I had two beds in my room. So I got up and told her that she could sleep in my room and she said ok but she will go later as she was on the phone.

I went back to bed and I was almost falling asleep after my migraine started to dissipate. I think I just fell asleep, and then my sister came in to sleep, which was great in triggering my AP experience. So it was win win. She didn't get to sleep on couch, and I got to AP. lol

It started with the vibrations, not as strong as before, it was rather quick actually compared to last time. Like 2 sets of different vibrations. First the one right after my body falls asleep and then a pause and a sudden one like going higher, I guess this is where the vibration change takes place. Also I didn't noticed any sound this time, not until later when I was waking up where I could hear my own brainwaves, kind of like the ones you hear on the brainwaves audio programs.

In any-case, I was now on the floor and I needed to control it since I wasn't. I was actually falling on the ground. I assumed control and flew. Again I tried to fly to NL. I tried this time to command myself to just appear there while I was above the sky. Then it was foggy and dark so I remember I have to ask for clarity. "Clarity!" And the fog started to dissipate, and something started to appear. At first I thought it was a castle, but later it took shape and it was the top of a ship. I ended up in these kind of small islands, like the Pacific's but on the northern waters, as it was cold and a bit snow-ish.

It was a pirate port. Something really small, made out of shipwreck, but where they exchanged goods. They saw me, so I knew it wasn't a physical place. I ask them how I could fly to NL, and they told me I couldn't, but to the south-west I could swim to Saint Martin. This don't make sense now as that is the tropic, and they were in a  cold place. Maybe it was my mind manipulating the temperature as I expected it to be cold in NL. So maybe I didn't got to far from where I live. In any case, this don't matter as it wasn't a physical place. It wasn't however, a very high plane either. I wasn't scare, it was just, not nice.

I decided to swim then if I couldn't fly. I guess it being lower plane made it harder for me to fly. I jumped into the water remembering I can't swim, but that it didn't matter as I was in another plane I could do whatever I wanted. One of the pirates ask me if it isn't cold. I told him kind of laughing "it doesn't matter, I 'm not in my psychical body anyway." I heard another pirate saying "oh, so she's a traveler". Then the first pirated answered me with a smile, "well, you are brave." Another hint that I was in a lower realm. I saw they had boxes full of old clothing they were going to deliver somewhere.

I waved them good bye and started to swim. The waves were BIG but nothing you couldn't really swim. Yet, the water was something weird. I could hear the sea so beautifully I didn't cared the water was brown. It was very mud-like, but it wasn't mud, or dirty, it was just dark water. (Again, lower realm?) I didn't liked dark water as I'm scared of not seeing animals that could get me. I passed through a door to another portion of the sea which was enclosed. And then the next one, I didn't dare go further as I thought I might get lost. I turned back, and saw someone also swimming in that direction, so I decided to follow. But by this time, I remembered how AP is brief at first and I have like a clock ticking to do what I want. And that time was up, I was slowly coming back to my body, the waves of that brown sea still sounding clearly in my ear as if I slept by the sea. And with it I could hear my brainwaves.

When I woke up I was satisfied I could AP again but not so much as I couldn't do much. I figured I did learn some control though. Remaining conscious enough to ask for clarity and teleport. Even though the teleporting wasn't so good. I think it has to do that if I'm in another plane that not the psychical, there is no way I will end up in the actual place I want. So maybe next time I should just ask for guidance and go to higher realms and do something else. :)

I tried to AP again seeing that I was still numb. So I almost did, but instead, I lingered around my room, kind of in and out of the body. I could see my sister fighting about the mouse and hear my parents in the kitchen and light like it was daylight. But I managed to open one eye to pick and my sister was sleeping and it was still night and there was no one in the kitchen. So I knew I was half dreaming and took advantage of it instead of panicking like the last time it happened. I end up falling asleep and dreaming, but FULLY lucid dreaming. I didn't went again to the AP but I did managed to create a full lucid dream, which was fun, although didn't do much useful but fly and impress those in the dream XD until they created some sort of invasion in my house to which I was like, BLEGH! And went out and started to wake up little by little.

So, this was success number two. And some lessons were learned. :)
1. Can't force AP. Need to let it happen with the appropriate conditions.
2. The lower realms are harder to fly due to the density I guess. And there's no need to be afraid if you are confident enough.
3. The sound of the open sea is wonderful. (ok not a lesson but still! XD)
4. Even if I can't AP I can lucid dream.
5. I need to ask to go to higher realms instead of focusing on the earthly one as it might lead to lower realms.
6. I learned to as for control and clarity.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Notes: Time and Noise Issues

Last night I attempted AP again. But this time instead of waking up after 2am, I was awake at 10:30pm or so. Which was way too early considering my sister and her kids are not asleep yet. (Yes, they aren't -.-) So, playful screams + dog searching (opening my door in my almost projecting peak making me jump) + sister listening to loud music while the kids are falling asleep O.o = bad combination to relax.

So I did drank some bit of coffee to stop morning headaches but thanks to my sister's noisiness I ended up falling asleep so late I was tired and slept the whole night. I do look forward to NL as it's quieter there and more organized schedule wise, maybe I'll have more success then. -.- No school kids going to sleep after 11pm getting me grumpy enough to lower my vibrations. zzzz

At least so far the attempt to do it every night it's progressing. After waking up at 10:30pm I had the same heavy and sleepy body as the previous night when I succeeded. So I will attempt again tonight.